Return To Allah

Who, when disaster strikes them, say, "Indeed we belong to Allah , and indeed to Him we will return."[Al-Baqarah:156]

  Since yesterday I really heavy bad feel, like Im worrying something.. but I don't know. People misunderstand me.
I am always like this, after I get heavy bad feel, there is something sad news or bad news happen. I calm myself. I really feel bad but I don't know what cause it.

but then my mom said " Kakak, be calm after hearing what Mom gonna say."
My sister and I start feel weird. "Father of Jeff passed away"
It is really shocking news. I feel like going faint.
That's family are the most close to us.
How is my aunt?
How is my cousins?

Everything return to Allah.

May Allah ease everything and gather our family and us in Jannah.

May we have long life with Imaan to Allah.

I stand but I'm bent

Dear Heart,

Alhamdulillah, today I feel healthy..
I don't know what happen to my life..
I don't know what I'm doing now
Where am i?..

I'm hurt on both side..
I can stand but I'm bent..

I know this all my fault..
Cuz I hope with all my heart..
But at the same time I'm refusing fact..

I feel I'm losing my mind.

While isya' prayer today,
My previous college sister came visit me..
Ask to pray jamaah..

I feel fine,
While we recite the Quran,
She show this ayah..

وَلَا تَهِنُوا وَلَا تَحْزَنُوا وَأَنتُمُ الْأَعْلَوْنَ إِن كُنتُم مُّؤْمِنِينَ
(So do not weaken and do not grieve, and you will be superior if you are [true] believers.)
Ali-Imran [3.139]

Maybe she catch me cried,
while I was praying on asar..

Am I true believer?
I feel shame..

Allah always there for us.. Do anything to please Him.. He can give us everything.
Make me strong
Ya rab

Heart Jump Up

 Laptop. Ohemjiii.. Finally, my dearest sister borrow me her laptop. Since November 2013 the last time I made entry on my lovely blog till today March 2014. I really miss to blog. Where did I dissapear??

Oh god really, I feel awesome when I able to start blog again.. Doesn't you feel the same? LOL..
Anyway, I able to talk again from my heart. Maybe people think its fun to read my blog or even they got bored...


It's not a matter.. I didnt being unlawful.

Where have I been?
Missing the moments, when there is so many idea in my mind.

I want to share,
I want to talk,
I want laugh,
I want cry, no no no not cry!

But then later cuz i still have many assignment not done.

Assignment???? yea Im a student again